ectoplasm

2010-11-05T13:06:00.001-07:00

2010-10-24T04:08:00.001-07:00

a lonely ghost

2010-10-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

what is another year not celebrating my birthday gonna make? sorry ar,

birthday is just another normal day to me, been this way eversince childhood.

i doesnt really bother me anymore, but actually it does.

2010-10-15T13:04:00.000-07:00

i got bitched slapped.

2010-10-11T07:14:00.000-07:00

Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind of waterfall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
Stars of night turned deep to dust
Melt me down
Into big black armour
Leave no trace of grace
Just in your honour
Lower me down
To culprit south
Make 'em wash a space in town
For the lead
And the dregs of my bed
I've been sleepin'
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the later parade
Once I wanted to be the greatest
Two fists of solid rock
With brains that could explain
Any feeling
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the lead
And the dregs of my bed
I've been sleepin'
For the later parade
Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind of waterfall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
Stars of night turned deep to dust

MY DIAMONDS

2010-10-03T08:24:00.001-07:00

yes, no maybe? i dont know... i have lost my mind, i have lose sense. my eyes sees the gap getting bigger between us my friend, we are getting distant. i dont even feel excited about going to KL for MA's it just feels so different, everything. maybe its me in my moment of being in this four walls too long, but hey buddy i was abit hurt by what you said to me, why does everything seem to have change is it them? no its not them, its me..

2010-10-02T06:22:00.000-07:00

2010-09-29T06:36:00.000-07:00

through my eyes things are different yes things changed in my eyes. when did it all start when did it happened? it's just me and my mind controlling me. problems after problems i thought i could managed but i guessed wrong, slowly breaking down limb by limb part by part...im breaking away..friends seems so far away, i learnt one thing today i can only lean on my own shoulders..no more can i rely on my friends but rely on myself...yes i am a loser with very pessmistic views in life..no ive been trying to be optimisitic but yes i couldnt keep it in me... the fact just the fact i feel my house is trembling down and i dont know who to turn to for help.. useless at its best. yes it might seem easy to ask from my parents and siblings no you dont know what i feel and the way they show it...yes i dont have a perfect family portrait and it just seems its killing me and i just cant seem to move forward

2010-09-22T06:53:00.000-07:00

what am i suppose to do what am i suppose to say, im getting tired of being trapped in this so called home so called country, with boundaries im caged, how do i get out of this place how am i suppose to feel great and look upon the bright lights, im like a lion being caged wanting to be free and run wild again, a part of me says i can do it a 17 more months and i'd be free again or am i? i feel alone i feel neglected, its all in my head i know and yes the mind is greater than the body.

MNDXFCK

2010-09-18T14:06:00.000-07:00

saturday intoxicated. wow raymond im proud of you..

you are now officially a fucking loser... i didnt know you were this weak..

and no im not going to let things passby me again.

2010-09-17T23:30:00.000-07:00

da tahu ada lobang masih nak jalan, kan skarang da jatuh dalam lobang tu dah susah nk panjat kluar dari lobang tu wow, raymond you look so pathetic now. it just never fails to play with me.

2010-09-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

the right mentality and the right atittude..fuck all that shit..
mind over body

2010-08-22T09:53:00.000-07:00

i thought you think who confirm?

i will try my best to be optimistic about things, cause life is that bad already when we're gonna face death sooner or later why not just make your life more colourful now... anyways 1 more year to go till im done.. all i wished for now is for this world to heal and not end. there's something more..

2010-08-01T05:21:00.000-07:00

tired of being alone, i think i need me a girl.

if there is such a thing as hot tub time machine i would use it to go back in time to change everything to make it right again, i just want to be with the ones. its a lonely week every monday to friday being not able to talk to some one and share my problems with during my time in camp, i hope there's someone out there who are willingly kind enough to listen to my pessimistic low self-esteem rant about my sad life.

please accompany me through my boring nights in camp

DxPRESS

2010-07-18T06:20:00.000-07:00

im here again to rant about how my life suck that much, i thought it would be ok but i was wrong, i've never felt this low before i cant believe i cried on the 2nd day of my life in the navy, i feel lost and helpless maybe i still have yet to get myself ready for it, i feel different and everything. sometimes when im staring at the computer screen i would go blank and just drift off to some blank space literally or i will just hope that something will happened to me that will have me out of the course, seriously of all the things ive gone through this is something that really made me a blank person.. i'd go blank easily. please god help me.. i want to go home everyday i want to see my mother i want to be home!

changing face

2010-07-15T07:24:00.000-07:00

im going to cry now looking at the photo films. someone special has gone away because im a jerk. most of the guys u know turned out to be jerks~ wow..... all those things u said all the things u said running through my head running through my head... you leave me like blood from my veins...

2010-07-15T07:10:00.000-07:00

i dont say hi even though i know your there, cause i think your busy and im just minding my own business. vice versa

2010-07-15T06:27:00.000-07:00

nak delete pun delete la...
i dont have alot of time for you and my other friends also i dont seem to care anymore.
those who want to leave can make your way out the door. if you guys dont get it that i dont even have time for myself then thats just it. thank you for being understanding.

2010-07-06T11:01:00.000-07:00

out of all the people i didnt want to see i have to see you.

2010-07-02T04:41:00.000-07:00

while browsing through the worldwide web i pondered about me pursuing my diploma in arts looking back again i dont think i have what it takes to make it, maybe its just for this very moment or i have lose my interest in art already which is a very sad moment for me, art is part of my life. i know my friends say i can make it but everyone has this voice in the back of your head to tell u something negative and i seriously need to get my basics back.

2010-06-25T18:24:00.000-07:00

too many people too little time.
sorry for ignorance

2010-06-19T13:13:00.000-07:00

all the best

2010-06-05T09:23:00.000-07:00

six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days six days....

2010-06-04T21:13:00.000-07:00

FUCK

routine life
regimentation
whatever bullcrap

sick of it sick of everything in that crappy island, i know i know. but still you stole my life away from me,my friends my family bullcrap, i could have done 2 years studying and accomplishing my diploma by then and get a good job, now u take 2 years of my life and waste it on something which i dont really give a damn about, id rather be in the civil or the force seriously. i have not been thinking right after the first day.

congratulations, IM LIVING A LIE

2010-05-23T02:11:00.000-07:00

give me more time outside and less time inside.
5 days of routine and 1 day of enjoyment fml.
what to do? mati mati have to serve this island.
where BOYS turns to MAN.

2010-05-16T01:45:00.000-07:00

its like being back in school but with more sweat and more discipline.
6 more weeks

2010-05-14T20:49:00.000-07:00

packing my bags and going away, somewhere somehow this isnt feeling right anymore.

silence has killed me.

2010-05-14T20:46:00.000-07:00

these four walls are driving me crazy

2010-05-14T01:45:00.000-07:00

most of the things seem so distant now.
broken, drifted and lost.

i as a human cant stop things from happening sometimes
but i can try to change it in someways,
but it all comes down to the subject and their decisions.
how is everyone doing i wonder and ask myself?
is everything not the same no more?

or is it just me back in this blue box of sorrow and dismay.

2010-04-25T11:09:00.000-07:00

everything might or will change in the coming days ahead of me. i'm not ready to go but i have to so many things left undone, so much things i fear of losing, my friends, my life and this so called society. i wonder why do we as guys have to go, if its right for us as humans to choose , we should be able to say no. but we are not given a choice not to go, you take away our life's and everything from us you give us pathetic allowances which i can work for and get more free time and more money for myself. im truly sorry to some, i have hurt them i am sorry but i know words cant undo anything, i dont have the guts to face you anymore, if everything changes when i return i dont see myself catching up, maybe i should just let it go and go away, i hope i dont cry cause to those i have known for quite sometime i tell you this "you guys are the diamonds and the gift that god gave me each and everyone of you are different in shape,size and colour and i try to not let anyone steal you away from me, i might speak hurtful things sometimes but i dont mean it in a bad way i just want some of you to realize that some thing needs to be done, i owe you people alot for helping me thru this 21 odd years of my life i cant only and truly say the friends i made from 2005 till date are the best i ever met and i dont have a single regret knowing you guys ok only for some of them pricks.anyways dont be sad cause im not leaving forever im just going away for 2 weeks, its not like we're not gonna have the chance to meet anymore, this only apply to those who isn't Singaporean, wait for me guys! i will return to my 2nd home once again very soon! you guys are i will never forget because without you guys i wont be able to know my way around kolumpo, i would like to take this chance to thank the sequence doesnt matter, ok. so here it is, norsan brothers,dean,chacha,atuq,suqon,sepet,cacing,man,kenet,ejat and lastly people from high castle for those wonderful and unforgetable roadtrips and the care for me. lastly to all my dear dear friends in singapore like hafiz raizo,azri,alyff,faiz,benson,andrew,joanna,hanif,haikxl,fajar,the chimeras, classmates from ITE(amk) terlalu bnyk to name. the hoodies u guys the best. anyways i hope you guys all the best and wait for my return ok! hopefully i wont change cause if i change it wouldnt be fun anymore. to those whom i have forgotten im sorry cause i dont really remember right now.

WILL STAY GOLD FOREVER.

2010-04-25T07:29:00.001-07:00

I think I'm losing. Is it too late for me?
I thought, I always thought I'd make it through.
I'm asking you, why?
Is it too late for me?
Your answers never clear or maybe it's just me.
I never took the time.
It's something that I see now.
And I know that you tried but something always held me back.
Every time, something always held me back.
I can't say I'm proud.
You always seem to know.
Some how I know you understand everything about me.
How could it even matter?
I wish I could say the same thing for myself.
The day is almost over, and I'm lost.
I lost another day.
Make a way.
I won't fade. I'll never fade.

2010-04-23T05:10:00.001-07:00

2010-04-22T09:01:00.000-07:00

STRENGTH OF HOPE?

errrr.

nooooooo.

cant make it

2010-04-22T00:17:00.000-07:00

笑里x藏刀

D P R S S A S F X K

2010-04-21T13:44:00.000-07:00

i cant help but feel that i have depression of some sort.
stupid voice in my head killing me.
its either ive been bipolar for too loong or i really have depression
or whatever it is and i know its not fun cause its fucking me up

2010-04-20T15:49:00.000-07:00

M.I.A
hilang kan diri pulak?

2010-04-19T23:03:00.001-07:00

is love that important? im still living without it and still happy.
ok im lying ahahha

2010-04-18T12:38:00.001-07:00

You almost always pick the best time,
to drop the worst lines.
You almost made me cry again this time.
Another false alarm,
red flashing lights.
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die.

I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry.
I buried myself alive on the inside,
so I could shut you out,
and let you go away for a long time. GET OUT!

I guess it's ok I puked the day away.
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.
And if you want me back,
you're gonna have to ask.

I think the chain broke away,
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine.
But it was worth the night,
I caught an early flight and I made it home.

I guess its ok I puked the day away
I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way.
And if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that...

With my foot on your neck
I finally have you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you,
Right where I want you

I guess its ok I puked the day away
I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back,
You're gonna have to ask

Nicer than that,(I guess its ok I puked the day away)
Nicer than that (I guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way)
Yeah, and if you want me back,
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that
Nicer!!
Nicer!!

2010-04-18T12:31:00.000-07:00

My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.

2010-04-18T11:58:00.000-07:00

no one to hear my sorrow. i've lost some kind ears.
would you hear me out?

2010-04-18T09:13:00.000-07:00

i am your biggest regret

2010-04-17T02:58:00.001-07:00

Left with images of you pouring from my eyes

2010-04-16T16:02:00.001-07:00

i can move a mountain but i wont be able to change the way you look at me ever again.

shattered hope

2010-04-16T15:17:00.000-07:00

you are the best shit that ever happened to me.
i hope things dont go down the drain just like this.
but i know things can be undone.

i feel sick to my stomach at myself.

2010-04-16T09:57:00.001-07:00

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2010-04-13T09:58:00.000-07:00

deep down inside it breaks me because i kinda hate myself. im sorry im not a good friend.

2010-04-13T01:53:00.000-07:00

firstly if you think of making friends with me think twice, cause i will hurt you and trouble you. think it through im a being with no feelings of how you feel i can be nice and snap at you the next thing. im a mess and you dont want to be in my mess.

2010-04-12T12:52:00.000-07:00

هنا أنا في ما بين العتمة والضوء
ابيض وأعمى من جانب هذه الليالي
حيث الدردشة القذف وفجر سمسم للتعذيب
من قبلك ، والرؤى منكم ثم انكم ذهب
الصدمة يرفع الحمراء من وجهي
عندما أسمع أحدهم أخذ مكاني
كيف يمكن أن يكون الحب تفكير بذلك ، لذلك من ضروب
عند كل شيء ، وكان كل ما أحتاج لك

سماء بلادي هو رمادي

2010-04-12T11:52:00.001-07:00

تتلاشى

2010-04-12T11:40:00.000-07:00

أشعر في حياتي هو نكتة لك.
أريد أن أهرب لكن قلبي يريد البقاء.

فعل لا مثلك لا يسبب الرعاية يؤلمني.

2010-04-12T01:57:00.000-07:00

so much i want to ask, so much i have to say.
im sorry if i ever did wrong. you will still be my
best friend, maybe its just in my head or let it be
true i want to know.

2010-04-11T14:20:00.000-07:00

brb thats all you said. no goodbye no nothing. im still waiting

2010-04-11T11:26:00.000-07:00

before i fall asleep and when i wake up its all i think about.
5472

2010-04-11T02:44:00.000-07:00

what has become off me?
now im all tensed and angst, i get moody so easily now.
will someone hear my pain,
the time that i really need somebody but you already seem to be drifting away.
im turning into something else im not.

where else?

2010-04-09T22:59:00.000-07:00

I won't mistake you for problems with me
I won't let my moods ruin this you'll see
I won't take everything good and move it away
I won't be left dancing along to songs from the past
Would you stay home and keep our memories warm with me
Would you give all your love for a run at the past with me
I know you're sad even though you say that you're not
I know you're scared even though you say that you're not
I won't get mad when you say things are getting too hard
I won't make all of your love so scared to come through our yard
I won't scream in my head and let it isolate me
I won't be left dancing alone to songs from the past

2010-04-09T14:22:00.000-07:00

i'd go for miles for you, but im trapped in this place being enslaved by the pigs.

are you there? are you listening?

2010-04-09T01:23:00.000-07:00

was i wrong? is this all just a bluff? i dont know, what is this?
tell me? tell me? do you really have nothing to say?
i think im going crazy, with all this thinking.
will you let me dissappear like the smoke from burning fires.
all i needed was somebody, someone to love and care.

2010-04-09T01:08:00.000-07:00

2010-04-09T01:05:00.000-07:00

x tau
- you said

2010-04-09T00:58:00.001-07:00

2010-04-09T00:50:00.000-07:00

its friday and i dont think im going out, have no where to go no money to spent.
maybe i'll just sit in my room and listen to songs. i dont see me going anywhere also.
let downs after let downs, really am i that boring or is it just me? always we stop
mid way during our conversations its either we have nothing to ask or your just busy.
entah la. this is my downfall this is my final goodbye. maybe your better off without me.
since my existence dont seem much in your life.

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2010-04-04T12:13:00.000-07:00

no more post no more nothing.
taking a break.

msn : mondray@live.com.sg
ym : skunkist@ymail.com

*but will still be checking tagboard now and then

im moving back to livejournal

2010-04-04T10:48:00.001-07:00

i would like to be stupid, cause i know i am

2010-04-03T22:43:00.000-07:00

FAIRYTALES ONE OF THE MANY WAYS OF MINDCONTROL.
as a child you end up believing relationships were like sleeping beauty or what not,
till your old you still wish for that happily ever after ending.
which you know wont happen cause you have to
FUCKING WORK AND EARN MONEY TO SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD.
HELLO WAKE THE FUCK UP.

POYO MAN

2010-04-03T02:57:00.001-07:00

2010-04-03T01:34:00.000-07:00

마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면
마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면
마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면
마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면
마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면
마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면
마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면
마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면
마일 떨어진 그리고 난이 나에게 너무 많은 의미가되지 않았 으면

2010-04-02T22:11:00.000-07:00

하루하루

SHIT HAPPENS

2010-04-02T13:36:00.000-07:00

2010-04-01T14:32:00.000-07:00

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is this but false hope?
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5472

2010-04-01T12:47:00.000-07:00

2010-03-31T18:01:00.000-07:00

been so lethargic lately i just get so sleepy and tired around 11 will just collapse and doze off even just by lying down for a few seconds. sorry i fell asleep more than once. fuck my life. im stuck in this constant knot that entangles me in emotional wreck. boy let me tell you, its no a fun think to have. seriously if you hate me just tell me i know its my fault

2010-03-31T09:34:00.000-07:00

2010-03-31T08:40:00.000-07:00

i rather you come clean then you shove it aside.
this feelin it came again the murderous feeling of my inside,
unstablizing my thoughts, im not a good friend i keep saying to myself.
sometimes i feel my existence is just a nuisance

2010-03-31T02:35:00.000-07:00

my existence is making peoples life a bitch

2010-03-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

EEEE~ PALABUTOH NI PMPN TKDE COMEL LAGI KE EEEE!

twenty one
sandara<3

2010-03-29T23:12:00.000-07:00

i'll love what you hate and i'll make you feed on it

54'72

2010-03-29T22:44:00.000-07:00

you can run for miles but you can never run forever

- reality check :

2010-03-29T22:37:00.000-07:00

the conversation before you left, you made a mark in my heart, you say so much to me change the way i feel and see. but it seems that you dont see it yourself, you seem to be affected by this force. you kept your problem to yourself and yet you wanted to carry mine, this is not fair and its not yours to carry, for just one time let things out and let me help you through. cause time and time again, i feel like i owe you so much.

2010-03-28T20:11:00.000-07:00

a day will come soon where i will be forgotten or replaced by some others,
the day i dread of and yearn for to get it over with, when it comes to slow i complained, when it came to fast i complained, i dont know why but the timing is wrong really, why? the day which i will see or come to learn who's really there for me, is this going to change my life to better or worse i have no say in this, we just have to hope and pray i dont end up like what i always strayed away from, if what you say is true then imma tell you one time~ imma tell you one time~
fuck justin bibir. anyways back to where i had left off, imma miss everyone so much being away from singapore, and malaysia. hopefully you guys do call me and text me.

will i be forgotten?

we just have to wait.

2010-03-23T16:26:00.000-07:00

ready for the love game, bring it on bitch

2010-03-22T01:50:00.000-07:00

2010-03-20T17:44:00.000-07:00

hollow

2010-03-20T15:40:00.000-07:00

its all empty again, not a single soul with cold nights and chilled breeze down my back sitting down and looking at that empty bed of nothing-ness. everything left untouched the scent lingers around the room leaving traces of nostalgia everywhere, there hanged a black coated coat left hanging as if its waiting for it's owner to return. suns sets quickly and night falls like dust time has passed by me once again its all empty and cold

2010-03-17T21:43:00.000-07:00

enough enough enough enough.
fuck this guilt trip. i know i know.
why do i always end up feeling shitty
even though its not me. i tried my best
ok, maybe my best is not enough.
i apologize for being a douchebag asswipe host

a day of fun a day only

2010-03-17T18:06:00.000-07:00

it's been so long since ive been out with my friends like really chill and hangout, it was the best catching up session ever i never laughed so much yesterday, nice to see you guys again, im glad that it still felt fresh and it felt like last time. then ending of the day was quite a good one cleared my mind of everything and felt pretty good later on. but reality will always be there to wake you up every single day no matter how you grin ear to ear to sleep the next day you'll wake up and realize it has already pass you by. i know i may seem nice but i don't think i am not that good. i hope 2010 will be a good year for me since im gonna get enlisted for National lameass Service FML~

im' 20 and useless

2010-03-15T14:39:00.000-07:00

an oath i made to myself and hope to keep it that way,
no more and i hope you will respect my decision.
♥

everything comes undone

2010-03-15T14:23:00.000-07:00

every single second things change nothing will be the same except for that bird shit stain on the pathway. it might just be me or it may be real i dont really get bothered by it anymore, people change so do i, why should i keep on pushing my care and my thoughts on my friends its their life, it's selfish of me to do so, cause i dont owe them, maybe one day soon it will come to their sense's that people do care and want them to change for the better, maybe they have yet to open their eyes and see. things have been slow for the week, hated the weekend especially being talked about by a friend is so not fun, im not angry at the fact that you think its fun posting it yes it is, but have you ever thought it thru for a few times? with our full names? did i ever owe you anything? i didnt even said a word or did something to you when your emotionally unstable, sometimes jokers kill yes they do, like joker on batman. think it thru i think i should be the one who should be apologizing for being too nice. i know i know everyone misses their pass, i miss 2008/2009, the best of my life i think, but yeah i miss it so much the kl trips the long stays, the long talks, sleepovers. i missed it so damn much. well. in 9 more days i will be gone again for awhile alone. was supposed to go with trip buddy, but he couldnt make it, i dont blame him. i'll just go to kl alone again. will be staying at kajang fuck yeah~ HERE I COME SEPET! cant wait to meet all of them again.

for now i just like to stay home and wonder about how my friends are doing. hope you guys are doing great.

2010-03-12T21:28:00.000-08:00

dont say that i dont care about my friends i care for them i do anything for them and i realize i cant control their lifes for what they wana do with it so why not be in their life be a problem from there on try to make them open their eyes and notice that what they are doing is wrong, i dont really care to let go some of my friends cause i dont really think some of them are even worth my time, you make friends to use them then when u have new friends u forget those who helped you, and when u need help again you go back to them, why not u just pay me to help you, cheap bastard. talk is cheap, dont talk to me about friendship if you yourself dont know what it is.

i think i follow my mind but sometimes my mind get astray and follow my heart.
which in a way is either good or a bad thing. for which depends on what i did, sometimes i just wana walk away everytime im being so called 'FORCE' in not really been force,
ok its called
peer pressure.

i'll just walk away

2010-03-10T05:15:00.000-08:00

i never wished for alot just a simple life
why does it life have to smack it in my face
sometimes, so hard id cry. i dont ask for a diamond
i dont ask for a sky, i ask for a simple little life with not
much worries, troubles and sorrow. i always tend to ask
myself whatever did i do to get smack in the face, for now
it has come to a conclusion to me that life is fair, no matter
good or bad right or wrong your going to get smack in the
face sometimes for some specific reason. sometimes it's just
you longing for the answer that people have left you hangin'

never be the same again

2010-03-08T09:07:00.001-08:00

i wont let you wreck my friendship, not a single girl will have the chance, i cherish my friends like diamonds. i'd die ok not literally but i will go the distance for them, friends are here forever.
if anything changes between me and my friend, i'll blame you

lovely bones

2010-03-05T11:33:00.000-08:00

These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections — sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent — that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events my death brought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous lifeless body had been my life